~Be thankful to Allah~

I'm not that good or very kind person and I just an ordinary person that still make a lot of mistakes, but at the same time, I really want to improve myself to be a better one...and a long time ago, I have my own "naughty" world when I was at primary school...but I hope, from day to day I will be a better and much better person...^_^ and alhamdulillah now I already at university for my degree and I learn a lot of things in order to change my personality for a better one.....

Ok...just a few minutes, let us see and think what if you woke up today with only the things you thanked your God ( ALLAH ) for yesterday...

yes....there's nothing I guess, or maybe just a few things left. Therefore, every single things and even a small things, we should thanked Allah because it very worth for us. When we lose it, only then we will know how to appreciate it. Sometimes, the very big things that we always forget to be thankful is "ISLAM". We are very lucky because we are born in Islam's family but sometimes we forgot to thanked Allah. "Oh Allah, forgive me if I always forget you, but I know, there's only You in my heart and without the permission of You, I will never be here at my place now and.....

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS,

 BUT I KNOW WHO HOLDS TOMORROW, 

ALLAH DOES~

~Love Letter~

I love him....I truly love him at that time, but he hurt me~until one day, I try to kill myself~
But "someone" came to help me...he gave me a lot of advice until I realize that I should love my family more than other people that only know how to make me fall in love but not responsible to it~

Yes, with the help and support from "someone", I can forget him...and I started to fall in love with "someone"~he too kind and nice person,but....I can't love him because a certain reason...and I hurt him to make him leave me..~~~and I know..yes! this is a very good decision for him...

After that, it's really hard for me to love a man...but there's a man that try to make me fall in love with him...I just accept him but, I don't really love him...just to make him feel better...and a few month after that, that man have other girlfriend and want to break with me...it's easy for me to let him go because I like him but don't love him...

"ALL OF THIS ONLY HAPPENED IN MY DREAM"

BUT now, I really hope that there will be someone that can open my heart....so I can give my "love letter" to him which is full of pure love~~~and I think, the time will come...and I hope the time is at my wedding~


"DREAM, BELIEVE and MAKE IT HAPPENED"

"Never Have I Ever"

Not a long ago, I had everything a girl could wish for : amazing friends, an adorable boyfriend, a loving family. But none of them know that I'm gone---that I'm dead---and that my long-lost twins sister, Emma, has taken my place to solve my murder.

But the deeper she digs, the more suspects she uncovers. It turns out my friends and I played a lot of games---games that ruined people's lives. Anyone could want revenge. . .anyone could want me---and now Emma---dead. 

"MY PERFECT LIFE WAS A LIE. NOW I'D DO ANYTHING TO UNCOVER THE TRUTH"

This is a very first time that I really attracted to an English novel. I'm not really interested in Malay novel especially the love story novel. For me, that kind of novel will not bring me to the challenging world that can give me an impact. But I know and I understand that each of person have their own interest and this novel which were written by Sara Shepard really make me feel that it is a must to own this novel as one of my collection. 

At first when I'm reading the synopsis, automatically I feel that this novel will give me an impact and I can be the real me. Why? why must this novel? Yes....because from the early age of me, which is about 12 years old, I really love comics and detective anime. And when it comes to murder cases, I feel like I'm the detective that will solve the cases. Therefore, this novel really suits me well!!!! I can't wait to enjoy the journey of this novel!!!

LET'S ENJOY THIS NOVEL!!!

and at the same time improve our English language:p

   I want to find     Sara Shepard's novel again which the title are "The Lying Game" and "Two Truth and a Lie".I hope                both of this novel will also bring me to the adventure journey when I'm read it.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahhi wabarakatuh~

Assalamualaikum.. it have been a long time that I don't write anything here at my blog..oh Allah!a lot of things to do until I don't have time to write something here...It's OK for me if there is no people read what I have wrote, but it's really make me happy if I can write something that I can share not many but a little story that can help us to find the true way, the right way in order to face our next life...hereafter.Let's us "muhasabah" ourself first, same goes with me. Astagfirullah~

Heee..nothing to do with that anime, just want to show how busy I am starting the first day I registered my BBA (Hons) Business Economics until now. Yesss...a lot of things to do...I'm really worried that my goals and all my reason to be busy is not because of Allah. Therefore, I really want to find the real reason why lately, I'm really busy and is it really bring me more close to Allah or not. This is the time for me to "muhasabah" more deeper about my own self and feeling.

Truth to be told, the feeling that I have now and at the moment when I study at KPTM Bangi is really different. It feels like one of the "light" is gone, not sure where the "light" have gone, and I'm still in the search of it. Yeah, sometimes that "light" came back to me, but just for a moment..I don't know why...it's really hurts me....because that "light" is the reason why I'm really calm when I was studying at KPTM, Bangi. And the "light" are my "sahabiah" and my "murabbiah" at KPTM,Bangi that always remember me to Allah when I looking at them,ya Allah my true love (oh Allah, I don't think I deserve to said that~=[ ). It's really different here, the calmness that I feel here is not the same with when I'm at KPTM, Bangi. Oh Allah!

But still yesss..I'm still happy here, with my new friends..^_^ because majority of my friends here will make friend with all type of person, that's really make me respect them and I'm feel very thankful to Allah because I believe there is "hikmah" why I'm here as the Business Economics' student. I really love economics, and now I want to think, how this economics can help me to contribute to "Muslim society" in Muslim world. I really want to see Malaysia to be one of the best Islam country that have the very good economy in the world with the uses of Islamic method. Oh Allah! all of this will only happened with the permission of You...help me to realize it with the help of You ya Allah, amin ya Rabb.

Are we really love our Prophet (Rasulullah)???

Suddenly, there was a person said Salaam. "May I come in?" he asked the permission to enter. But Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) did not allow him to enter the room. "I'm sorry, my father is ill," said Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) turned back and closed the door.
Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) went back to her father who had opened his eyes and asked Fatimah, "Who was he, my daughter?"
"I don't know, my father. It's the first time I'm seeing him," Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) said gently.

Then, Rasulullah (saw) looked at his daughter with trembled look, as if he wanted to reminisce about every part of her daughter's face. "Know one thing! He is who erases the temporary pleasure; he is who separates the companionship in the world. He is the angel of death (Ezraeel)," said Rasulullah (saw).

Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) bore the bomb of her cry. Then, Rasulullah (saw) ask his daughter to allow the angel of death (Ezraeel) to enter.
The angel of death (Ezraeel) came toward him; But Rasulullah (saw) asked why Jibril (Gabriel) did not come along with him. Then, Jibril was called. Jibril was ready in the sky to welcome the soul of Habibullah and the leader of the earth.

"O Jibril, explain me about my rights in front of ALLAH (SWT)?" Rasulullah (saw) asked with a weak voice.
"The doors of sky has opened, the angels are waiting for your soul. Paradise opens widely waiting for you," Jibril said. But, in fact, those all did not make Rasulullah (saw) relieve, his eyes were still full of worry.
"You are not happy to hear this news?" asked Jibril.
"Tell me about the destiny of my people in future?"

"Don't worry, O Rasulullah. I heard ALLAH (SWT) told me: I make Paradise Haram (forbidden) for every one, except the people of Muhammad," Jibril said.
It became closer and closer, the time for the angel of death (Ezraeel) to do his work. Slowly, Rasulullah's soul was pulled. It was seemed that the body of Rasulullah (saw) was full of sweat; the nerves of his neck became tight.

"Jibril, how painful this Sakaratul Maut is?" Rasulullah (saw) uttered a groan slowly. Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) closed her eyes, Imam Ali (as) sat beside her, bow deeply and Jibril turned his face back.

"Am I repugnant to you that you turn your face back O Jibril?" Rasulullah (saw) asked to the deliverer of Wahi. "Who is the one who could see the Habibullah in his Sakaratul Maut," Jibril said.
Not for a while, Rasulullah uttered a groan because of unbearable pain.

"O ALLAH (SWT), how greatest is this Sakaratul Maut. Give me all these pains, don't to my people." The body of Rasulullah (saw) became cold, his feet and chest did not move anymore. His lips vibrated as if he wanted to say something, Imam Ali (as) took his ear close to Rasulullah. "Uushiikum bis salati, wa maa malakat aimanuku" - "take care of the Salaat and take care of the weak people among you."

"Outside the room, there were cries shouted each other, Sahabah (Companions) held each other. Fatimah daughter of Muhammad (saw) closed her face with her hands and, again, Imam Ali (as) took his ear close to Rasulullah's mouth which became bluish.

"Ummatii, Ummatii, Ummatii" - "My people, my people, my people." And the life of the noble prophet ended.
Could we love each other like our prophet Muhammad (saw)?
Allahuma salli ala Muhammadin wa aale Muhammad (O Allah! Bestow Peace on Muhammad and his Descendants)

How deep is Rasulullah's love to us? Indeed Rasulullah (saw) really deserves best of our LOVE than everything in this world as shown in the following narration.